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Title: As Soon Go Kindle Fire With Snow
Author: [livejournal.com profile] sariagray 
Characters/Pairings: Jack/Ianto
Word Count:
872
Rating: PG13
Warning: Bloody. Not-quite angst. Unbeta'd.  
Disclaimer: I do not own Torchwood. I do not make money off of Torchwood. In fact, it seems as though Torchwood owns and makes money off of ME. This is for entertainment purposes only.

Author’s Note: SO. I'm quite literally snowed in. Can barely open the door. I have no idea where this story came from or how I feel about it. But here, take it. I wash my hands clean of it. The title is from a quote from Two Gentlemen of Verona. The full quote: "As soon go kindle fire with snow, as seek to quench the fire of love with words."


As Soon Go Kindle Fire With Snow


Around Jack’s lifeless body, the blood is dark and thick as syrup. As it spreads out, a gradual procession, it lightens until it looks more like a frozen treat than spilled life force. It seeps into the powdery snow, staining it a grotesque pink that forms a sick halo.

It’s a strange scene, and rather cinematic. The muted colors of white and black grey the blue of Jack’s greatcoat; it seems to match the sky. The splash of red blood is shocking, like a little girl’s coat in monochromatic winter streets.

The Weevil had been shot by Jack before he had taken his last-but-not-really breath and his hand still clutches the gun. There is blood beneath the Weevil, too, but not nearly so much; the wound was relatively small, the death clean. It is still snowing hard enough that the area looks to be shrouded in fog and the flakes collect in piles on Jack’s face, dusting his brow and lips.

The merry, gentle chitter-chirrup of a songbird echoes in the silence.

Ianto kneels beside him, heedless of the wet cold that soaks through his trousers. With care, he removes the Webley in much the same way one would gently coax a rattle from the clenched fist of a baby, almost as if he doesn’t want to wake Jack. He regards the pistol carefully, checks the safety, and places it in Jack’s holster. The action rearranges the collecting snow and he gently brushes it all away with a gloved hand.

There is a good deal of blood mixed in with the snow where he rests, but he doesn’t allow himself to think of that. With a tenderness that he would never show in the bright analytical light of Life, he sweeps the white drifts off of the still face and leans over, pressing his lips softly against Jack’s. They’re cold and hard and unyielding beneath his; it’s not that he expected anything else, but a shudder travels through him and tries to turn itself into a sob.

He pulls back, slow with the chill that permeates his bones, and watches the inert form. The pallor amidst the swirling snow is bold and terrifying; an archetypical fallen hero, a tragic prince trapped in ice. Ianto shifts his own body and arranges Jack so that the heavy head rests in his lap. He smoothes the hair almost mindlessly, the other hand clutching Jack’s upper arm, as he contemplates images and metaphors – anything to soften the blow.

It isn’t new to him, this dying-and-reviving business, but it still aches more than the thought of his own death. He is reconciled with his demise, has been since he signed up with Torchwood One, but he doesn’t ever fully believe that Jack will come back. One day, Death or the Doctor will claim Jack for good. All he can think, pray, is “Not now. Not now. Not now.”

Ianto’s grip tightens and his stroking hand stills as he feels Jack grow warmer, lighter, in his hold. Then again, it could be the numbing cold that causes the sensation. There is a sharp intake of breath and he looks down just in time to see Jack’s wild blue eyes darting, scouting the area. The revived man finally glances up into Ianto’s face and his eyes open wide in query.

“Shhh,” Ianto soothes, burying his desire to weep or shout with joy. “It’s safe now. You’re safe. I’m here.”

Jack’s eyelids flutter closed for a moment as his eyes reset themselves from panic to poise. They open again and a smile finds its way to his lips. Ianto is grateful for that small gesture, relief prying the fingers of anxiety from his heart.

“Hey. I died,” Jack observes conversationally, his voice raw with cold and death.

“That you did,” Ianto agrees, his mask as firmly in place now as it has ever been. “Weevil claws to the back. That coat needs mending again. You all right now?”

“Yeah.” Jack struggles to sit up and Ianto can see healed skin through the shredded wool. “Yeah. You?”

“Bit cold.”

“It’s still snowing. How long have I been dead?”

“Little less than an hour,” Ianto answers, though he had been counting the minutes and knows the exact time.

Jack frowns at him, stands, and grabs Ianto’s hand to tug him up. For once, Ianto doesn’t protest the assistance. Pulling him close, Jack wraps his arms around the chilled form and ghosts his warming lips over a temple.

“You’re frozen. You should’ve gone back to the SUV.”

“And leave you here for the ravens to scavenge?”

Chuckling, he clutches Ianto tighter. “All right, we’ve got a Weevil to take care of. Where’s my gun?”

Jack pulls away and, holding his lover at arm’s length, glances around the whitened landscape for his revolver. Ianto smiles indulgently at him and nods toward his hip. Jack checks and beams up at him.

“Ianto Jones, what would I do without you?”

“Somehow, I think you’d survive. The sooner we finish with the Weevil, the sooner we can get back and warm up.”

Jack doesn’t answer and Ianto refuses to interpret the expression on the man’s face. Silently, save occasional grunts and the panted breath of effort, they work.


The End

Date: 2011-01-12 02:54 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] usakiwigirl.livejournal.com
Wow, you snowed in means some good but angsty reading! This was such a great insight into how Ianto might feel whenever Jack dies. Once again, you blow me away with your writing.

I've been watching the weather - you might be stuck for a while. It's really gonna come down up there!

All we gots is rain, rain and just for a little variety, more rain. But at least we aren't flooding like Queensland. It looks like a bloody swamp up there.

Date: 2011-01-12 02:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chironsgirl.livejournal.com
I have just lost part of a filling. Will now have to brave the North slope of Alaska to find a dentist. Who can do emergence work. And I have no insurance. Will probably end up as wolf bait. Thankfully I carry a crutch to walk with, so that should help me beat off the weevils. Kensington Market has no Torchwood. I'm on my own. Lend me a shovel?
XOXOXO IJS#22

Date: 2011-01-12 03:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chironsgirl.livejournal.com
We are almost snowed in. Thankfully there is a robust fellow from Chile living here who knows how to use a shovel. Which is good because I have just lost a filling. Will have to hook up the dog team and find a dentist who will do emergency work. And I have no insurance. Thankfully I use a crutch to walk with, so I have something to beat off roving bands of weevils. As Kensington Market has no Torchwood I am on my own.
XOXOXO IJS#22

Date: 2011-01-12 03:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chironsgirl.livejournal.com
Please forgive the double comment , I thought our router had eaten the first one.
XOXOXO

Date: 2011-01-12 04:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] musicaluvr.livejournal.com
Saria snowed in = more great fics.... so should I go .yaayyyy!!! or poor Saria, not being able to go out..? Or I could do both? :D

Thanks for sharing and hope you get "rescued" soon.

**sending you warm hugs**

Date: 2011-01-12 04:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zazajb.livejournal.com
*stifles a sob* Poor Ianto suffering waiting for Jack to revive, but such depth of love and loyalty there...gorgeous xxx

oops! Forgot to say hope the snow eases off so you can at least open the door...but while you can't you may as well keep those fingers warm by running them over the laptop keyboard! *cheeky smile* Brilliant story x
Edited Date: 2011-01-12 04:55 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-01-12 06:12 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] analineblue.livejournal.com
Oh, this is just beautiful. *__* I love this idea, that Ianto can never quite come to terms with Jack's dying, and that there's always this part of him that feels that horrible sense of loss anyway when he sees him like this. And all of that was portrayed so well here. Excellent job. <3

...And I do hope the snow stops at some point so that you're not totally stranded! (In the meantime though, writing seems to be a good way to pass the time. ♥)

Date: 2011-01-12 07:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] toshiani007.livejournal.com
***sighs*** That was beautiful!!! I loved it!!! Well done!!!

Date: 2011-01-12 09:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] welsh-scotsman.livejournal.com
awww! this is lovely, and, in a way, quite sweet; not quite sure that's the tone you were going for, but all the metaphors and description and the way they interacted with each other and all the underlying emotion in their gestures and what they didnt say was lovely=D

oh yes

Date: 2011-01-13 12:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lawford.livejournal.com
This was as lovely as new-fallen snow.

Date: 2011-01-13 06:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jedi-harkness.livejournal.com
*sniffles* I'm so sorry you're snowed in but I'm glad such a beautiful story came out of it...

Even though Jack always comes back I always thought it must've been hard for Ianto whenever he died. I thought you wrote his thoughts and feelings wonderfully. Well done! :)

Date: 2011-01-13 08:41 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] lilferret
Heh. Oh, I interpreted the look. Captain, you naughty, naughty thing. *giggle*

Date: 2011-01-13 08:43 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] dairwendan.livejournal.com
I love fics where Jack wakes up in Ianto's arms. This one, from Ianto's POV is beautiful!

Date: 2011-01-14 01:51 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] bk_forever
Angsty, but strangely tender. There's a great deal of caring in both their actions. They seem to express their feelings better in actions than in words. Ianto will always keep vigil over Jack until he revives, no matter the weather.

Snowed in - that's not good! Hope the snow doesn't stick around for long.

Date: 2011-01-14 12:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mcparrot.livejournal.com
Wonderful imagery, the grey, black and white and red (a bit like your site here actually - did you mean to do that?)

I'm sorry you're snowed in. It's mid summer here and it's finally stopped raining and started to get hot. Not praying for snow yet, but probably will be soon. And snow=fic from you so I've got no problems with that.

Date: 2011-01-16 07:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chocolatenianto.livejournal.com
Poor Ianto, this is an amazing view of what he goes through every time Jack dies. I loved the imagery of the little girl's coat in monochrome streets being compare to the blood on the snow. Made me think of the scene in Schindler's List. The loyalty, care and pain Ianto has in this put a lump in my throat, it is so good he is there when Jack revives and then Jack showing concern for Ianto. That line of Jacks “Ianto Jones, what would I do without you?” so sad in a way.

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