GAH!

[sariagray]

Oh, look. I'm whining about stuff.

Okay. Yes, I already KNEW we weren't having Christmas this year. But I'm still disappointed, as it's my favorite holiday and I literally look forward to it all year. Not now. No tree, no lights, no decorations, no cookies. SO, yeah, no Christmas. I will be spending the majority of the holiday at my coworker's house, by myself.

But, in any case, I still wanted to buy my family a little something. I didn't get paid last week because someone down the line was an idiot. Long story. That all got sorted, but THEN I find out today that they aren't going to pay me until Christmas Eve. There goes THAT idea. 

 

I still had a little bit of money, though. Until Netflix charged me $30 for two DVDs that I sent back over a month ago. They were excellent people and reversed the charges, no questions asked. But that will still take a couple of days to clear.

Then today at work a water main/line/thing broke. And everyone got to go home EXCEPT the people across the street (which includes me, of course) because our water wasn't shut off...it just wasn't WORKING. Seriously, it was disgusting. They sent us a lovely email saying that we could go to the library down the street to use the bathrooms if we needed.

So finally, after a long day of stress, I remember my constant craving for fish and chips. My town used to have two joints that offered such fare. One, I knew, had closed about a year ago. So I drive across town to the other one. THEY'RE not open again until January 4th. I JUST WANTED FISH AND CHIPS! I have been craving it for almost a month now! WHAT THE HELL!?

Throughout all of this, I keep finding myself repeating "I want to go home." But I AM home. It's not helping that I miss my ex like crazy; it was all well and good until now. I've spent the last five Christmases with her and it sucks to...well, not. Once the holiday ends, I'll be in a better place, I think. But then, I've never ever had to say that about Christmas before. Is this what growing up is? It's stupid. I don't want it.

Comments

[xrai-namere.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear about all that.
*hugs and squeezes*
I hope things get better soon.
*HUGS*

[usakiwigirl.livejournal.com]

Somebody evil has sucked the soul of Christmas from us all this year, I think :(

Buck up, little camper, we're here for you. *does half-hearted jig*

No, honestly, we all love you. Wish the fish & chip shop was open. Shark & greasies always warms the heart :D

[analineblue.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight* Sorry that this has been such a shitty Tuesday. :/

I've actually found it to be quite filled with fail myself, so I can relate? XD;; (Left my work ID at home, so I'm pretty much chained to my desk as I can't get in and out of the locked door; no one's calling me back because everyone is on freaking vacation already, etc. >_>)

I'm sorry about the holiday stuff too. ;__; *sends you virtual Christmas cookies and decorations* <3

[bk_forever]

*hugs*

I know the feeling - I want to go home too! I am home, but it's not home. No heating, can's sleep in my own bed, things are being put in storage as fast as we can pack it up and find someone to transport it. Because I'm agoraphobic, my room has always been my sanctuary, but it's not anymore.

Hope things get sorted for you, really sorry you didn't get your fish and chips! When you're already down, life finds new and exciting ways to kick you in the teeth!

[sariagray.livejournal.com]

*Hugs back* Thanks hun. I feel better having vented, anyway. :)

[sariagray.livejournal.com]

I see you've used your "cheering up" icon. :)

Yeah, everyone seems to just be...in a funk of some sort. At least it keeps me from feeling like a complete grouch.

And thanks. :) I love you all too!

Give you three guesses where I'll be on Jan. 5th! :)

[sariagray.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* Thanks hun. In actuality, I've had much worse! It just hit me today, I suppose.

And I know exactly how you feel about work - I've forgotten my card key before, and it's a PAIN. And, yeah, what is it with everyone on vacation!? lol

Sorry your Tuesday was a drag, too! :(

*Noms virtual cookies and hangs decorations* Cheery already! :-D

[sariagray.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you're around! I was actually going to send off an email to you tomorrow (though I might still do).

I hope you get things sorted soon, hun!

I think the fish and chips was the final straw. Such a little thing, but I seriously almost started to bawl. I NEVER cry. The Christmas bit (or, really, lack thereof) wouldn't be so bad if it was a money issue. But no, it's alcoholism and depression and blindness. Oh, my family.

Again, please let me know if there's anything at all I can do for you. I know I'm...a long ways away, but, still. Anything I'm able to do, I will. *BIG HUGS*

[usakiwigirl.livejournal.com]

It worked, didn't it? :D (I'm drooling smiling just looking at it now).

See icon - I have no idea what is happening on the 5th? I'm slow - and when it's your 5th, I'll have packers in my house, so my focus is a little off at the moment :/

[sariagray.livejournal.com]

Should say 4th, sorry; when the fish and chips place opens again. :)

LOL Your icon makes me giggle. Especially its appearance under mine. Thanks for the giggles! :-D

[usakiwigirl.livejournal.com]

God, I told you I was slow! It wasn't until I posted it and looked that I literally smacked my head and *doh - I have Max!*

And yeah - I should have figured out the fish and chips bit myself... have a hot chip buttie for me (that's a sandwich, you perverted sod, before you come back with anything else I need to write that's just wrong). Fresh bread, loads of butter, hot chips, dipped in malt vinegar. Heart attack waiting to happen - hmmm, delicious!

[zazajb.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you're having a rotten time at the moment. *sends virtual tree, lights and pressies* Just remember we all love you here. Hope it gets better soon and sorry you were denied your fish and chips xxx

[bk_forever]

It warms me just knowing there are people out there who care and are thinking of me! Thankyou.

I hope your missing Christmas won't get you too down. We've grown so cluttered we haven't had decorations up for several years as there was nowhere to put them. If one good thing has come from all this, at least mum has been forced to part with large quantities of junk! We're only just starting to get rid of stuff, but there's a load being picked up by a charity shop tomorrow. The more clutter we can get rid of, the better!

Have the happiest sort-of-Christmas-without-really-seeming-like-Christmas that you can! *hugs you tight*

[sassysailorgirl.livejournal.com]

Oh, poor lamb! *hugs you tight* I'm right there with you this Christmas. No real celebration here at Chez Grania, either. No money, my mother's depression and constant doom & gloom, and, yeah, no biscuits.

I've been pining for my "home," as well. I'm just dying to get to Cardiff. I'm so in love with Wales and that city itself. I just feel this sense that I belong there. I'm getting there. Next year, I hope to celebrate a Welsh Christmas with some friends who live nearby.

Is it January yet? *sighs*

[sariagray.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :) *Hugs* The fish and chips thing seems so silly now...but at the time, I had my hopes set so high! I am feeling much better thanks to all you lovely people. :)

[sariagray.livejournal.com]

This lack-of Christmas seems to be a trend this year. It just...doesn't feel right. I've had all these problems before, of course, but....Ah well.

I hope you get there, soon! :) I can tell how much it means to you. Will you let me stow away in your luggage!?

And, almost. That's the other thing. Time keeps slipping away from me. Where the hell does it GO!? lol

[analineblue.livejournal.com]

I swear, people have been on vacation since last week, it seems. >_> It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't, you know, need to get stuff done that involved them. :P

XDDD *sends more cookies* ...Just think, Tuesday is almost over! ^_~

<3